August 28, 1955
To Haroon --- Copy to Mansoor,
My dearest Haroon. Many thanks for your letter of August 15. Your
account of your holiday at Nathia reminded me of some of the most
thrilling experiences of my childhood. It was quite an adventure to
travel from Peshawar to Nathia and if it lacked any colour of the
rainbow I supplied it from the inexhaustible paint-box of my own
imagination. One went to Hasan Abdal (If you find out what Abdal means,
you will see what a strange name this is) by train, then by stage-coach,
or rather stage-tonga carrying the Royal mail to Abbottabad, and then on
an emaciated, bony hack (but it was like Don Quixote's "Rosinante"
surely) to Nathia. The horses were changed every 20 miles or so and the
driver had a bugle of shining copper and brass slung from his shoulder
and I always hoped he would blow it on every possible excuse but alas he
was so niggardly. "The trouble with youth," said Shaw, " is that it is
often wasted on the young. The trouble, I then thought, with beautiful
things like bugles and blacksmiths' bellows and potters wheels was that
they were often wasted on the grown-ups when they should have been given
to the young. The galloping journey always reminded me of the journey to
Dover in the early part of "A Tale of 2 Cities". At Abbottabad there was
always Mir Waliullah with his erudition, his Persian poetry, his
incurable Hazara accent and his Kashmiri tea which but formed the base
to layers and layers of thick clotted cream. The gullies to my mind,
which was crammed with books, were some country of northern Europe or
Canada. The houses had tiled sloping roofs and there were fireplaces and
crackling logs of wood and one could roam about in thick virgin forest
on a carpet of pine needles and the trees had exhilarating English
names, pine, & chestnut and wild oak. There was so much forest lore that
I loved to gather or imagined I was gathering like some sturdy
lumberjack that I had read about and I felt so deeply happy at growing
up within myself in a decent pure open-air sort of way like the
boyscouts in Baden-Powell's book which I knew by heart but which I could
not share with anyone for no other boy had ever read it or heard of it.
And so there it was: a beautiful world carved out of nature by an inner
lonesome exuberance of spirit and dreams of Europe and of far-off times
and lands, - - all wrapped up in a soft romantic light. The dream never
quite disappeared. During my college days I wrote a detective story
(published in two installments in Imtiaz's monthly magazine "Kahkashan")
which had the gullies as its background. This was mainly to lay my
memories to rest in black & white somewhere, although it had many other
ingredients too which I acquired later in my teens.
I have been typing this letter intermittently over about 4 days. Have
had busy evenings and hurried mornings. A fatiguing week. I tire more
easily now. I should have a brief siesta or at least a period of rest
every afternoon, to break up the day into two. Easier to run a mile
twice with an interval in between than to run 2 miles" says the doctor.
But I don't always get the chance. However I mustn't talk like an
invalid. Invalids are bores. I bore myself with such talk even before I
bore others. Why did you have to go to Multan(!) to "see Geldart off"?
where was he going from there? Into the desert? Sounds like a last
farewell at the edge of civilization before a famous British executive
disappears into the unknown, bent upon unraveling the mysteries of yoga
at first hand. Re company shares and your suggestions that I might buy
some this winter on your behalf. How many? How much money? Please
remember that I haven't as much money now as when I commuted my pension.
I have been drawing on my rupee account for Zubaida and for setting up
my house here and the car etc etc. Glad you are nearing a decision on
Sunnyside. Hope Zubaida has not been too reluctant to fall in with the
plan and to go Pakistan. Once or twice I have asked myself where I will
live when I return to Pakistan. But depends on when I return, in what
capacity and in what condition.
These things are at this stage too remote to be guessed intelligently
and present plans cannot be held up by an unknown, hypothetical future.
So please go ahead. Will you both be taking your vacations at the same
time? In October? November? and spending it in Karachi?
Its Sat today. Might go off into the country to spend the afternoon on
the private beach of a friend's house. But its cloudy and muggy and the
weather-man has predicted some thunder-showers. So might stay at home
and finish Aldous Huxley's new book (published two days ago) "The Genius
& the Goddess". It is poor stuff. Written, it would seem, by a clever
but immature schoolboy trying to imitate A.H. of 20 years ago. NY Times
(Sunday edition: magazine section) are publishing a full length article
on me with photos etc. The article has been ready for many weeks. They
are waiting for a suitable moment. They have their own theories of
timing. So I don't know exactly when it will see the light of day, but
will of course send you copies.
Have had the typewriter overhauled ($11) mostly to send a carbon copy to
one of you of the letter I send to the other. Seems the only feasible
method of keeping the "crossing of the wires" to the minimum. Good idea,
don't you think? There are many things I like to say to both of you, but
its tiring to have to repeat. For the moment the typewriter seems to
solve this problem. When I get bored with this I'll think of something
else.
Political news from Pakistan is as usual confusing. Difficult to sort
out the plot of a play in which every other character is called Muhammad
Ali, and somebody is always being dismissed. But I am glad that I.M. and
M.A. are GG and PM. They should form a very good combination. Amjad is
returning to Pakistan to become (so it is rumored) the Foreign Minister.
Please give my love to Zubaida, Roshan, Nina, Tahir, Xain and the new
unnamed Ninette (i.e. daughter of Nina).
Yours most affectionately,
Chief
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